a Lover And a Friend

I was just sitting here thinking about my past and my future, and something hit me.
I’ve never been in a real relationship.
That shit is crazy.
Nine years in the game and I never had a real relationship.

To my understanding, in a relationship, your mate is supposed to be your lover and best friend. Someone that accepts and love every part of your personality without judgement. A profound connection, where nothing is inhibited.

Well, ain’t none of them niggas were my bff.

I honestly thought my last boyfriend was my best friend.
I told him everything and I held nothing back.
I was able to be myself and not feel like I had to act as if I was "perfect".
But then I realized that all that shit was one sided.

But I’m not bitter at all about it.
When the time is right, I guess that person will enter my life.
(I'm so not looking. I need a break)