Meltdown Anyone???

So I might officially be crazy!
I had a minor breakdown last night when I looked in the mirror and did not recognize the person staring back at me.
Fresh off my first argument with the new guy, I began to feel like my world was closing in.

It all started Saturday morning.
I woke up feeling majorly depressed for no apparent reason, and had this crazy ass migraine that wouldn’t go away.
I locked myself in the bathroom for about 2 hours. I had to regroup because I refused to face the day looking how I felt.
But that didn’t work.
My attitude still showed no matter how hard I tried to smile and ignore the feelings that I had deep down inside.
I felt I didn’t have to address these feelings, because I honestly did not know what they were.
Why am I feeling this way when for once my life is going so smoothly?

So I started picking on little things in my mind.
Things that normally weren’t an issue, started to bother me.
I was annoyed by everything.
I felt lonely!
So what did I do?
I picked on the person next to me.
I said things to him that was unnecessary, and I took his jokes seriously.
Did that to him for two days.
My sanity began to slip away.
I had to get away.

Wasn’t in the mood for liquor, so I figured maybe some kush would ease my mind (don't judge).
But I opt for good ol’ music therapy, and it helped a bit.
As I showered I prayed.
I asked God to help me find me.

I had no one around me that I felt would understand me. So I texted my best friend to let her know that I’m going insane, and her reply shed the most light I’ve seen in days.

"Loneliness can do it to u. Feeling lonely even when you’re surrounded, or even if you have someone to share your life with.
Or, things could be moving too quick. You could forget who u are & what you want, all in trying to make something of what you’ve now got.
…Or, it could be something else! The devil is a LIAR…so u get on your knees, lift your hands to Jesus, bow your head, close your eyes, and pray! Love you".