My Explanation of Slackness…
Wow... It's been a minute since I've been on here.
I did not notice how long it's been (time goes by so fast).
What really snapped me out of it was Don commenting on a very old post.
I felt bad for my lack of reading material.
A couple months ago I would have blamed my slackness on twitter
....(but that was not the case)
I decided to quit and delete my account for two reasons.
1. Twitter became my mini blog and started neglecting my site.
2. Some people that I knew began to look phony to me. It’s like they took on a whole new personality once they logged on.
Yet after deleting my account and losing my followers….I still did not post (SMH) or checked up on the blogs on my list :(
Instead I was building other sites, working my ass off, and researching things like the new world order, occult mind control, illuminati, and freemasonry.
But I gave up on the research. All it did was drive me crazy (too much info & too deep for me)…
I also had another moment of depression. I don’t even know what that was about.
But I had to go to work daily with a fake ass smile on my face and deal with people when I did not want to be bothered. At the time I rather be locked in my room, curled up in my bed.
It was so annoying to me to have to go on with my everyday life like it’s all good, and have to listen to other people’s problems when I was internally dealing with my own issues that I could not figure out.
But I listened and gave the best advice I could.
Well everything is good now.
I rejoined twitter and promised myself to find a balance and start blogging more.
I still haven’t figured out what my little moment was about, but I’m back to the old me.
I prayed that God would take that pain away from me and he did.
6 comments:
Depression is a serious thing so consider yourself fortunate and strong that you snapped out of your brief bout in no time at all. I know you are proud of yourself and ready to move forward with your life.
Yep, I stopped by and commented on an old post. I always remembered you to write solid material.
Although I knew you'd stepped away I was in need of some good reading material on a night like tonite where I lay in bed on my laptop, listening to music and browsing good writing and real blogs as I experience trouble falling asleep.
Plus, I always remember sincerity.
Once again, handle your business.
I agree with Don depression is a serious thing. It is even more serious because, most times it goes unnoticed even by the person who is depressed.
I don't want to sound personal because I know and love you. It is hard however, because of that. I never knew you were depressed because I was wraped up in my own
crap. Mine was loneliness. I guess they are one in the same huh?
You are so subdued naturally I never thought (once again thinking of me)...I'm sorry for that.
We as balck women sometimes take on more than we should because we are care takers. I always said to you. "If your so strong for everybody else who's going to be strong for you"
We are not an "Island" so there must be communication at least to help filter the gaps of the roller coaster we call depression.
Why do we care about the Job, the family, the Spouse, the boyfriend the kids before ourselves and eventually leave ourselves behind out of the equation???
Think of it this way. If we are not well they won't be either.
The new year is approaching and as many of us we make resolution that we don't or can't keep.
The only sure thing in life and death is GOD but while we are here. TREATING OURSELVES BETTER IS THE BEST THING we can do for ourselves.
"Lets be selfish next year"...(((hugs))).
Aw man. I received this email notification and after I read it, I just had to reply.
Very touching and inspirational, Wordaholic. the two of you should go out soon and enjoy the night to the fullest.
Thanks Don. Your comment means alot, most men just don't take the time to notice.
Sad...but true.
Thankfully,God knew this that's why we are not built to break.
That night on the town is coming sooner than later.
@Don: Aw thanks :)... I appreciate the fact that you enjoy my blog. That's a major compliment coming from you.
Depression is very serious. When I read this book called Black Pain I realized that it's not just me. I use to just write it off as a 'quarter life crisis' and think it would phase out.
With the help of Wordaholic I've been more vocal with my issues. But this time I just did not know what it was.
But I'm so over it now.
@Wordaholic: You're so right! You never fail to give great advice.
I'm so feeling "Lets be selfish next year" and that's exactly what I'm going to do (for once).
I swear you guys are the best!!!
Ditto.
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