Imma Be On Time....

....When My Stars Align - Kid Cudi

So as of late, I've been getting the
"When are you going to.............?" questions.

When are you going to start dating?
When are you going to be in a real relationship?
When are you going to realize you're getting older?
When are you going to start having kids?

                                                  (record stops)

Ok, I can take the first three questions, brush them off, and roll my eyes in true Crys.C fashion.
But, When I'm going to have kids?!?
Like, really?
That question always irks me for some reason, whether it comes from my mom or a friend.
It's even more awkward when it comes from an ex.
It's like everyone has bids on my womb...
Betting on when I'm going to pop one out honestly shouldn't be a concern.

I've heard everything from 'You don't want to be 60 with a 10 year old' to 'After 35 there are too many risk'.
That's all well and dandy...
If old ass Halle Berry can have a seed, then what makes them think I can't?
I have a whole decade to reach 35. So there's no reason for me to be on a hunt for a sperm donor at this very moment.

I really don't see what's the big deal. It's not that I have anything against having kids (it's thought of child birth that scares the ish out of me), I just can't envision myself raising my kid in a fatherless home. If I'm bringing a life into this world, I want it to be with someone that I can see myself with for the rest of my life.
So until I meet that person that I want to combine genetics with, I will be just fine.

God has a plan for everyone.
If it's meant for me to be the aunt with no kids, then so be it.
But if it's in His plan for me to be a parent, then it will happen

In Due Time...

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It's Music B!+@%...

Everyone that knows me, knows that I love music.
I love everything about music. From the play of words, to the creativity of how a track is put together.
I must say, nothing excites me more than discovering new artists.
(i.e.) When Kid Cudi and Mike Posner's first mixtapes came out, I literally had a musical orgasm...

As of late, good music is hard to find.
Everyone thinks they can rap or sing, so real artists are a rare commodity these days.
Lately all it takes is the right image and a hot beat.
But that's a whole different topic that I'm not gonna get into right now...

I was having a mini convo with Wordaholic and she stated how Raheem DeVaughn sings a lot about women so he must be raised by and around them.
That statement made me instantly think of Dwele. Then I started to think of Neo-Soul as a whole.
Artists in that genre aren't afraid to express their love for the women in their lives thou songs, and to be honest, I can't recall hearing any of them singing about how a woman is a bitch, whore, or chicken head.
So it made me wonder...
Why is it, as a society we respond to songs like 'Is That Yo Bitch' (and make them hits) but ignore songs like 'A Few Reasons'?

Don't get me wrong. I have nothing against Hip-Hop. You might catch me rapping along with Cam'Ron (word for word) on any giving day.
And I have to admit, I have a very filthy mouth at times, and will be quick to call someone a bitch (don't judge me, I'm working on it).
But why is that cool?
It disgusts me to hear a man disrespect a woman. But yet I'm a walking contradiction...
I use those words, and I support the music.

I guess my real question is: As a society, how did we get to the point where bitch became a part of our daily vocabulary?

Well as I type this I realize, ain't shit there's nothing I can do until I improve myself...

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